A random observation from Carla Bruni

Carla Bruni, ahem Carla Bruni-Sarkozy if you will, was once asked how she was inspired to write songs (her occupation, other than of course being first lady of France and wearing really chic clothes, is that of a singer-songwriter). She mentioned something along the lines of how being alone and having lots of what amounted to “me time” as a child helped her develop the intellectual space to write songs.

My writing (which is decidedly less marketable than that of Ms. Bruni, and I also unfortunately do not have the looks to help me either) is suffering from a lack of me time.  While some of the “togetherness” has been enjoyable- My uncle has been in town for five days- other parts not so much (my teeny tiny apartment was packed to the brim last weekend). I haven’t had more than two hours to myself in maybe three weeks, and while I am getting enough sleep, the constant solicitation is really getting to me.  When people ask why I did not have kids in my twenties, this is why- I need to be alone at least an hour a day with no other person, no other unnecessary noises, and no pending urgent responsibilities. Otherwise my brain is tired. I can’t write. I can’t think. I’m cranky. I’m distracted. I’m touchy. All these things.

I can so hear the haters now saying to call the waaahmbulance, but seriously. It is getting old.

And then when I do stuff like create a personal space- like last night at dinner, I had already eaten, so I went to the living room while the men ate in the kitchen.  What did I get- DH trying to carry on a conversation with me from the kitchen.  I give up. 

 

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